16 days to home.

heart ached when dad said sorry just now for raising his voice.
i sort of choked. cause i was the one who made him worry.
im such a un-filial un-filial daughter.
dad is just so very fragile. which probably explains why mom wanted to murder me for breaking his heart.

was telling N last night how my dad thinks of everything.
how early in his 40s he is alr preparing for ting and my life if he happen to pass away. he thinks so much, in such detail and extent tt N cried, cause she was just so touched.
srsly. i have nvr heard of any other dads doing things he did.

like how can a person be so simple minded and care so much for his family?
its just incredible.

i cld tell isabe was on the verge of tearing up too. and i was just heartbroken from the convo i had w dad.

ting and i. we are both v homely kids. its just the way we are brought up. and probably no one can really understand why i wld give up anything and everything for them to be happy. and not be upset. maybe N understands. hahaha. looking at how she cried from what i said.

on a lighter note.
im currently working on this..
secret project.
i hope it all works out.

wish i cld shit lightbulbs every day. and be this excited.